Listen: I really like talking to you,
even though I rarely know what to say.
So I just end up asking about your day.
It'd be so much easier if I was right there with you.
But like a chump I'm 1,000 miles away.
See, Darling, I could be your one
if you'd just wait for me.
See, Darling, I'm damning us into oblivion
or reality.
I think you could fit me like a shady hat on a sunny day.
I try to look ahead
but it's like i'm looking in a mirror
to a past that'll never happen
and all my friends are there.
I found a clearing in the mountains
all covered in snow
that felt far below my lowest low.
I saw some guy drop his pants in some big, open first floor window
and he just didn't give a fuck.
you remember jeffrey, don't you?
he's at the bottom of lake emerson
in a pair of cement boots.
like it didn't have to be that way,
like we could've done something
could'a forced him to stay.
When I was 18 some guy told me to take what I can get on a first date, but if she goes to far then know it's just play.
When I was 19 I knew a girl who always smelled like a bar of soap and a fresh cigarette, and she said, "your regrets can all go to hell," and I haven't looked back since.
When I was 23 my old man told me that I can do whatever I want so long as I don't mind where it lands me.
c'mon cat, you're making me nocturnal
you're making my struggle eternal
'cause i can't sleep during the day
with that sun just soaking my face.
last summer,
with the bender to end all benders
but i'm still here
and it's december.
